Pursuit of Happiness

The subconscious personality usually manifests in the night. Especially when you have a semi-dark room lit with small yellow light bulb, the French windows open allowing a cool breeze from the sea nearby. Though some claim to have a multiple personality disorder, I believe the word 'disorder' is a misnomer. There is nothing bad in getting the subconscious out sometimes. At least it helps others. Love, they say, is happiness. Mathematically then, the pursuit of love is the pursuit of happiness. Therefore if one is not happy pursuing love, then the pursuit should be stopped.

I tried to tap into Zia's subconscious, which she felt was a disorder. I have this philosophy of learning from others' mistakes or rather experiences. That's why I ask so many questions, not for their sake but for my own.

Irig: how busy are u ?

Zia: not at all :)

Irig: kuch gyan chahiye tha, about post relationship SOPs

Zia: :))

mane ?

Irig: mane ?

Zia: I mean post relationship SOP bole toh

Irig: Standard operating procedures

Zia: hmmm....depends on how badly does it effect u ...:)

Irig: Suppose the effect is very bad

Zia: Two ways .. think so much that u get bored of thinking

That happened to me

Irig: To me too

Zia: Or else don't think at all... and deal with it when you are in a better position to

Irig: hmm

what about communicating once in a while

Zia: hmm that can be quite chaotic

Irig: why

Zia: pata theres a point when you finally know you are over it

uske baad is chill warna otherwise can be chaotic

Irig: ya

Zia: mere liye chaotic ho raha tha talking

Irig: What if the opposite party insists on talking

Zia: hmmm

Irig: frenship n all tht stuff

Zia: depends ... quite lucrative actually

Irig: why

Zia: never works yaar

mane slowly u'll start missing all tha

Irig: ya

Zia: So after a while u'll want to get back together

Irig: hmm

Zia: isse achcha hai wat is over is over and stand le lena chahiye

mane very tough but karna padta hai

Irig: I think u r right

Zia: There's always a chance ... that either you get over ...coz u get bored of the repeated "emotional chaos" so

that feeling goes

but i still think its better not to talk

Irig: hmm

chaos can be reinvigorated though

Zia: haan

Irig: How about getting in touch after a few years

when you are finally settled n all

Zia: That i guess is okay

Zia: pata the only point is getting over that feeling

Irig: I agree

Zia: mane it can happen overnight bhi

Irig: but does a comparison occur in a new relationship ?

Zia: yeah :)

sad side of affairs

Irig: How do you deal with it

I mean how should one deal with it

Zia: hmm .. shuru mein u'll long for the previous one ( if u r not over that one yet )

else current one zyada sahi lagta hai anytime

Irig: ok

Zia: par don't be in love with 2 ppl at the same time :)

Irig: oh...cant dare that anytime

Zia: :))))))))))

Irig: I guess that was the case for her, though she will never admit that during her lifetime

Zia: yeah

:))))) if it helps.. it must be shit time for her

:)

Irig: No i don't think so

Zia: :) aisa lagta hai

Irig: ? aisa kya lagta hai?

Zia: I mean thats how u think it is

but it must be tough for her

Irig: No i am sure...

it was tough for her to separate

but never tough to make a choice

Zia: choice is not tough

but haan being in love wuth 2 ppl is

abhi bhi she must be thinkin of u when she is with someone else

but that doesnt change things

Irig: ya she must be

I know she'll always think

till her lifetime

Zia: yeah

which doesn't make things easy for her

Irig: I guess she'll be happier thinking about me rather being with me, so i guess it should work fine for her

Zia: haan

vague state

but yeah

Irig: True...but i think there is a concept of subconscious love

Zia: pata nahi

haan hai shayad

problem hai ki love nd relns confuse nahi karna chahiye

Irig: wats the difference ?

Zia: love is unconditional..cliched but thats the way it should be

relationship is a two way thing

Irig: I never understood the difference

the unconditional is all ephemeral

its too inhuman to be unconditional